Main Photographic Workshop with Joyce Tenneson

     I received in my inbox an email from Kerry Curren of the Main Media Workshops. It was surreal to see not only a zero balance, reminding me of most wonderful honor that the CCAD Media Faculty bestowed upon me, but the heading renewed the anxiousness at the nearing date. I have been thinking a lot lately of portraiture. I have been doing some freelance retouching as of late and doing some assisting jobs, but more than anything I have been experiencing a desire to do some freelance portraiture. I think doing some commercial looking portraits and some more intimate portraits would probably prepare me a little for the workshops but that is hardly my drive. I have been dreaming in light lately. I keep dreaming of these small spaces with people in them with light raking across weathered faces with a macro lens, of light overexposing in a burst right by the brow of a doe eyed girl. So many lighting scenarios, complicated concepts, and technical experiments have all been being called into question in my shallow sleep. I know one thing, and it is that this summer will not put a dampener on what I will, with the help of many subjects, create.

     My grandmother told my mom right before she died last week that she couldn't leave her plans behind her. I think that's what each of us must do. So many things tire our bodies, and minds, that we often loose sight of the things our hearts are fond of, and the plans we ultimately want. I think the dreams I have been having lately are in response to my added time to self reflect, and have inadvertently served as a stigma, renewing my sense of fervor in all of this. All I can say is that I am very excited for the things to come.